Matsui Jurina

Gotta Face Forward

02.19

Due to the release of ZKT48's 1st single, I decided to make a little review on my blog.

Oshima Yuko.

Recycled candy boxes-like seifuku.

Whirling standing mic choreohraphy.

You're absolutely right! It's Mae Shika Mukanee.

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Mae Shika Mukanee has a meaning "gotta face forward". Got a clue how the song would be?

Mae Shika Mukanee is Oshima Yuko's last single before graduating. It's a good song after all. Seems like the producers were trying when they created it, and maybe they were.

Compared to the most of AKB48 released major singles, Mae Shika Mukanee has a discrete theme. AKB48 had crawled out of its snake pit of mediocrity random oddball songs. Their major singles with Yuko as its center never gets me bored! The energy level in the song is great, especially for a live concert. Mae Shika Mukanee won't win any awards for song production, but it's a song that's at least slightly less bland than AKB48's recent songs, so I'll take it.

So, let's go to the spotlight of this post.

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"Gotta face forward

You'll notice the tears

'Cause if you look to the side

Gazing into the distance

And gritting my teeth

I'll take this path!"

This song is telling us to take step forward, to develop ourselves to be a better one, to build a better life. Somehow people don't succeed because they still clutch in their past and loomed by their past. It's either because they are sure that it's okay to stand idle or they withdraw their selves from changes, they don't want to out from what called as comfort zone.

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"I met you

And we hung out all the time

We struggled against

The days of our youth

Because we knew

That the important

Things in life

Lie in the future"

This line caught my eyes a bit. It triggers me to remember my buddies in ZKT48 and ZKB48 at their old era since this song is about letting what behind us and go forward.

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"Even if we're having fun right now

It can't go on forever

We can't cling to it"

Just like what I've explained before.

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"Gotta face forward

At least, in the end

Let me go out with dignity

My new world

Scares me, but

There's no going back now

Even if I look back on the road I walked

All I see is the wind blowing"

Touché! That's the point. Sometimes the thing that spooks us to move from our comfort zone is the fear of meeting new things and menaces because we had accustomed in our customary behavior in a particular situation.

And this is it. New ZKT48 has born in the RP world. New friends, new beginning, new atmosphere, well, it wasn't that hard to get used to it. The new hopes from new aces has been arised.

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"The night my relationship

Fell apart

I stood on the swing

Like when I was a kid

When I shouted obscenities

In a loud voice

You were right there next to me

And your kindness pierced through me"

Again, about the friendship in the past.

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"No matter how hard it gets

The sadness can't last forever

Let's live strong"

I ever read a good sentence said "if you're sad, cry a river, and get over it!" (it reminds me about RIVER lyrics smh). Nothing lasts forever and so does sadness. It may hurt, it may depressing, but the one who is able to end it is you yourself. Do you really acquiesce yourself to live under the sorrow? Of course not. Even stupid people who believe in apocryphal stories always wish a "happily ever after". Remember that everyone deserves happiness.

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"When it's time to set off

Cast out your memories"

I also ever read a novel that written around 1930's. It's about someone who failed in defending his marriage because he's still loomed by his past. I want to say that if the only thing that we can do to move on is by casting out your memories, then go for it. Miyawaki Sakura ever said in her speech in 2015 Sousenkyo that we ought destroy the old one to build a new one (I didn't expect she could be that wise???? Lmao). We have to sacrifice something to get another thing.

I think, that's all. I'm writing much more than usual today. Thank you for spending your time to read this post.

AAAAAAAAAAAAND THE LAST BUT NOT LEAST LET'S BUY ZKT48 1st SINGLE, MAE SHIKA MUKANEE. YOU CAN MENTION ME ON MY TWITTER OR SIMPLY GO TO THE PURCHASING PAGE.

P.S. I ALSO DARE YOU TO READ CISAV'S FANFICTION ON HER WATTPAD.

The "Teacher"

10.07

Before talking about my tiring week, I want to apologize if you couldn't access my blog.

There was something wrong happened to every member's blog I myself didn't understand much.

But Unyi-P said it caused by the usage of domain name was already up.

But, now the problem had fixed well.

And I intentionally create a new post to prove everything is going well now.

Okay. Let's start.

Good evening. As another cliche opening I usually use to start a writing.

How's life, people?

Well, me, I'm fine since the last time I checked. Although this week was being the busiest week I've ever been through.

Busy yet meaningful week.

It started when I was being trusted to train some understudy members from 1st generation: Reina, Mayuyu, Uha, and Nyan.

There, I had to teach the proper way to sing quickly and create a lively MC.

I got a little problem to determine the right time to train them together. Unfortunately, their mundanes had another business in real life in different day. That sucks at first. But I didn't want to make everything getting worse so I followed what they wanted.

I used #JurinaJoongki hashtag for my students' theater training to distinguish mine and another members'.

The training ran for three days. On the first day, I trained Reina and Nyan. It didn't go as good as what I wished so I made a deal to re-train them in the next day. On the second day, I trained Uha and Nyan. It was better than the day before lol. And on the last day, I trained Mayuyu in the daytime and Reina in the evening.

It was tiring so much.

But,

somehow I felt a comfort to teach some things that may useful for another people.

Remember my goals here?

One of my goals here is to be there when I'm needed.

I'm also grateful they could understand my explanation quickly and practice it well. They are great idols.

One day, please promise me you can aim the zero position, okay?

Don't waste my attempt to make you better or I'll kick each of you until you cry in agony.

It may be hard, the way you're going through may be steep, but as long as you keep endeavoring, you can anytime reach it.

I hope you guys still remember me when you're already on the peak.

I'll be the witness of your success from the bottom to scream your names out loud.

I'm looking forward it.

Good luck!

Deeply apologize because I didn't take a picture together with Reina.

Don't forget, tomorrow ZKT48 will release the 1st single, "Mae Shika Mukanee". Since I'm the center of the A-Side then buying the copy is a must.

Introduction to My Project

23.27

Should I Title This Post?

08.01

Untitled. I have no idea what words to drop in the title column. I could say today is the most stupendous day in my life.

Today, ZKT48 was holding the first concert for the new team, Team Z, titled New Team, New Journey. The members sang approximately 21 songs in a day.

The concert went well without any problems but unfortunately some member got trouble. For example, Juri, she couldn't follow the entire concert because of the electricity in her mundane's house was quenched. Nobody's worth being blamed because it was out of Juri's control. Erika also got a trouble where she came late because her mundane fell asleep since the concert began.

Everybody seemed enthusiastic attending today's concert. I hope it's not only today, but for the next 1000 years of ZKT48's existence.

Many affairs happened nonstop today such as shocking announcements, celebration of Kiku, Mako, and Nako's birthday (seitansai), and the funniest affair in 2016 (wow very hyperbolic, right?) goes to when Park Chanyeol came from nowhere and sang together with us. It got me the feeling like nakinagara waraide (as I laugh, I cry).

The climax of the event was of course when Unyi-P announced the announcement. And the climax of the announcement goes to the 1st single senbatsu announcement. This sort of announcement forever will always be awaited.

But, wait, before conveying about the single thingy, I want to tell another announcements that important as well.

Today, from now on, Nanami Hashimoto will be the captain of Team Z. In the lower position, there is Zhao Jiamin as the vice-captain. I won't congratulate both of you, but I will always be the one behind your senaka to support you, because getting occupation is actually to examine your responsibility. I hope you guys can fulfill your duties.

*inhale*

Okay, let's go to the spotlight of this post!

So, ZKT48's first single is "Mae Shika Mukanee" or means "only look forward". Such a pleasing title, right?

It's planned to be released on June 1, 2016.

Here is the line-up of the senbatsu : Rara Goto, Nanami Hashimoto, Erika Ikuta, Ju Jingyi, Rena Kato, Saya Kawamoto, Mako Kojima, Jurina Matsui, Sakura Miyawaki, Ryoka Oshima, Sumire Sato, Juri Takahashi, Meru Tashima, Nako Yabuki, Fuuko Yagura, Zhao Jiamin.

I got the zero position, center.

I'm unable to express my happiness. Such a pleasant to be trusted as the front girl of this energetic single. Some of my friend also said that I deserved this position and considered I'm suitable to be the center of this energetic song. Well, I took it simply as compliments.

Before ending today's post, I would like to thank those people.

Especially, the one who was very excited as I was being appointed as the center, Sakura. She hugged me immediately after my name was mentioned. I'm glad I met Sakura. She is always there to support me. She also mentioned me on her latest post. She is the one who excited in reading my new post all the time. She really knows well how to make me feel honored. Therefore, I thank you so much.

So did Ryoka, Fuuchan, and of course Savoki. Although they always get in my hair, they are my best "supporter" so far. With all my heart, I thank you.

And also, don't forget this one girl whom made me dumbfounded all day long, Juri Takahashi. I at first was a bit shocked when Juri confessed to me that I'm her oshimen in ZKT48. I feel so honored when a person like me could be adored by someone, lol. Thank you so much!

Finally, my biggest thank goes to Unyi-P! I'd never expect she would choose me as the center of the first single since she ever said to me that it's hard to choose her own partner in managing ZKT48 as the center nor the ace.

I hope the decision of appointing me as the center didn't make anyone become wrathful.

Oh, and for Savoki, do promise me we will be the WCenter in a single one day. "Kibouteki Refrain", right?

From now on, I promise to those who have supported me so far, I will always do my best. がんばります。

June, 2016

In a peaceful starry night,

Jurina Matsui

Do's as ZKT48 Member

09.17

Good evening.

First of all, I want to tell you that this whole writing is subjective, based on my thoughts. If you don't agree then it's up to you. I won't force you to nod your head after reading the statements that written here.

Well, tonight I'm going to tell you guys, especially to non-ZKT48 members who have a desire of being part of us about the things you should have and do (do's) due to the opening of ZKT48 2nd Generation Audition.

By writing this doesn't mean I'm feeling like I'm greater than anyone else. I wrote this because I think I have more experience that perhaps can help you a bit.

The first thing I'm about to tell is the do's. Read and learn every line carefully. I also wrote important things point by point thus I don't want to hear any reason stated that you can't understand my remarks anymore. That's nonsense.

Okay, start.

1. Be ambitious

Being ambitious is the first gate to take your step to the success. This is a very important thing every member of ZKT48 must have. If you don't have any ambition then don't fill the form. ZKT48 is the place for ambitious people for the sake of reaching their dream of being a "real idol" (I quoted the words because we lived in fake world, don't you think so?). And here is another one essential thing that you should keep in your mind, keep realistic.

2. Well-mannered

I think I don't have to explain much this point because manner is an essential matter that everyone should have everywhere, everytime, and with everyone. Being well-mannered will help you to steal everyone's respect.

3. Be active

Intention without action is like a good trash. It's good but it's still a trash. Make your move, make it happen. Dream is forever dream if you keep sleeping. Go out, work, get experience, earn money, be happy. With being active means you're actuating your plan. With being active, people will see your effort and some of them will give you their appreciation in different way. Praise? Promotion? Senbatsu? Front-line? Center? You'll get them.

3. Be friendly

You may have a big dream and plan to be succeeded but don't let it make you too busy to build a good relationship with everyone. Be nice, not only to your manager but also to your buddies. Don't ever be cocky and feel lazy to greet them first. Isn't it good to be known as a humble person?

4. Show your different side

Show to everyone that you're different (of course in positive meaning). I believe everyone has their own unique side. Don't ever shy of being true and being yourself. You have a low sense of humor? You are a talkative? You are a quiet one? Show it! Don't force yourself to be similar with someone else. Keep being yourself but don't forget to change your bad manner. Note that being yourself and avoiding changes to be a better person are two different things.

5. Perserve and Be Patient

Because sometimes good things don't belong to you, because sometimes you can't get what you want. Believe that there will come a right time to you to get what you've desired. Don't give up. Keep trying. It's just about the timing. Have you ever heard a story about one of ZKT48 member that had dedicated herself for 3 years to ZKT48 but had never become a center? Now she can be the center of one of ZKT48 1st album song. Yes, after waiting for 3 years. Happiness and success will come to those who perserve and patient, sooner or later.

I think that's all for now. I hope this post is worthwhile for those who is currently struggling to reach their dreams. I also hope I have another leisure time to share good things to you all. Sorry for the mistakes in grammar and spelling.

Jurina Matsui (@MATSUI38G)

June 21, 2016.